Random Thoughts

It's been quite a while since I posted something that wasn't a daily challenge thingy, so I'll do one now :)

(FYI this has no structure, it's just ideas/thoughts typed when they pop into my head)

After a quick google search, some of the most popular blog post topics include work, friends, depressing things, girls, what-I-did-today, etc.  I have posted something on just about all of them previously, but I guess the easiest and most relevant topic would be girls.

As much as I dislike talking about this kind of stuff, it's something that's kinda hard to ignore as it's one of the few things teenage guys tend to talk about on a regular basis.

Let's start with the facts:
 - Courtney: approx 3-4 months in 2007
 - Rachael: a couple of weeks in 2010
 - A few other half-assed attempts which turned into nothing

As you can probably tell, I'm nothing special.  9 times out of 10 I won't do anything if I like someone because I'm rather shy :/

To be completely honest, I don't want to find myself another girl until I sort my stuff out (trust issues, lying, university things, etc).  It just wouldn't be fair for them otherwise... 

My parents have never been too keen for me to have a girlfriend, which is why I don't tend to tell them much about this kind of thing.  I didn't tell them about Courtney at all (which was a bit of a mission).  I think it might've been a good idea not to tell them about Rachael too because their negative opinions were almost too much to handle.  I guess now it's easier to pull out the 'I'll-move-out-if-you-don't-stfd' card since school is finished.
Who knows, maybe I'll meet someone at uni? maybe at swimming? maybe at okains? maybe someone walking down the road? Perhaps if I move to america?  I won't know untill it happens.  In the mean time, I will just have to sit back, and make the most of what I've got.

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Ipod Challenge, Day 8

First song to come on your shuffle that is a love song; explain it’s significance to you if any.

~ Love Story - Taylor Swift 

~ It doesn't really have any significance. Taylor Swift is cool. This song has been played 17 times on my itunes.  That's about it.

Ipod Challenge, Day 7

Think of a certain song to want to listen to right now, and go through your shuffle until you find it. Post how many songs out of how many are in your entire library it took to get to it. example: i found the song after 34/576 songs.

~ Omen - Mt Eden Dubsteb
~ Found it at 313/865

Ipod Challenge, Day 6

First song to come on your shuffle that relates to your day that day; explain it.

~ Yo (Excuse Me Miss) - Chris Brown

~ This relates to my day because I am going to school today to drop off the last of my drama portfolio.  When I see Ms Moran, I will probably say something along the lines of "Yo, excuse me miss" to get her attention.

This also relates to my day as I want to show my (lack of) appreciation to Ms Moran for her amazing teaching skills she has shown us over the last two terms.  I want to hit her like Chris Brown hit Rihanna.

What school has taught me

Something I have learnt from each of my classes at SBHS:

~ English - Never read 'Into the Wild'. Ever.
~ Drama - I suit characters who are either dead or asleep
~ Maths - I'm only good if I turn up to class
~ Accounting - If they do not pay you your money, phone them (inside joke)
~ Economics - CIG(X-M), TIT, FAG, and any other accronyms are only helpful if
                          YOU KNOW WHAT EACH LETTER STANDS FOR
~ Sciences/Chem - I like to play with fire, just a wee bit too much...
~ Social Studies/Geography - A video/movie each class makes the year a lot more
                                                   fun
~ Yr 9 Technology (wood/graphics/food) - It is better if the teacher DOESN'T
                                                                         know who you are
~ Japanese - I would need a lawyer to go 'shi'
~ P.E. - I have good knees for goalkeeping in soccer
~ Music - Mr Scott puts people off doing music.  Thank goodness he is leaving.
~ Art - It's rather suspicious when a whole class gets the exact same graduation
             results...

~ Form Class - I can teach a class better than Mr Bell.

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The Social Network

Well today I finally found someone to go with me to see The Social Network.  For those of you that don't know what this is about, it's based around the creation and legal battles of Facebook.  I must say it was a fantastic movie, and one that made me change my outlook on things.

Some people didn't believe that I could be changed so much saying "it is just a movie."  I took the time to come up with the following response (which I posted as a comment on my status):

Yes, it is a movie, but it is one that is based on a true story. I don't necessarily want to create a website (I'm not THAT good with computers and whatnot), but just seeing how such an amazing company was formed from a simple idea. How a ......small group of friends turned this college hobby into a multi-billion dollar website in just a few years...

I admire Mark Zuckerberg because he didn't do this for the money, he did it because he was good at it and enjoyed it. He made Facebook his life and spread it around the world. He was a shy back-room nerd who, in the space of 10 years or so, has become one of the most influential people in the world today.

From now on I will be living my life in a way Zuckerberg once described Facebook;
        "We don't know what it is, we don't know what it could be, we don't
          know what it WILL be. We just know that it is cool."


Even in the few short hours I since the movie, I have had time to look at what my life is heading towards, and how I can turn it into doing something that I'm good at and will enjoy. 

Many of my friends have set goals for their careers such as being on the radio, own their own shop, etc.  Well I think it is time I set a goal for MY future.  Next year I start studying towards a Bcom and Llb but currently with no idea what I want to do after that...  I know I want to travel, and I want to have a lot of fun along the way, so why not combine everything?

My new goal:  To become an accountant or lawyer or anything else for a company such as Facebook.

It would put my skills and knowledge to use, I would be able to travel (quite possibly to America), I would be a part of something I love and am proud to say I'm addicted to (Facebook), and I would be working for one of the most influential people in the world, the great Mark Zuckerberg.

All I need to do now is work out how I can achieve my goal, and make sure I do everything I possibly can to make it work.

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Ipod Challenge, Day 5

List the first ten songs to come on your shuffle, and post the first one in your audio post.

~ Trigger Fingers - The Devoted Few

~ Cookie Jar - Jack Johnson

~ Plastic Jesus - System Of A Down

~ Fake It - Seether

~ Two Worlds - Disturbed

~ By The Way - Hinder

~ I'll Stick Around - Foo Fighters

~ Shadow Of The Day - Linkin Park

~ Snow (Hey Oh) - Red Hot Chili Peppers

~ Somebody To Love - Justin Bieber

Sorry

I apologise in advance to anyone that reads this post, but it just had to be done at least once.....

I just lost The Game.

Ipod Challenge, Day 4

Fifteenth song to come on your shuffle is now the theme that describes your life; what does it say?

~ Don't Change - INXS

~ What I get from this is: I am who I am, and I shouldn't change just because other people tell me to.

Ipod Challenge, Day 3

First song to come on your shuffle that makes you sad; why does it make you sad?

~  We Speak No Americano - Yolanda Be Cool & DCUP

~ This makes me sad because it reminds me of when I first heard this song. In the car with Freeman on the way back from Sumner after the last Oliver! performance.  It doesn't make me sad because it was the end of weeks of hard work, it makes me sad because it reminds me how much doing the show stuffed up my work ethic.  It changed my mindset about school.  Thanks to Oliver, there is a good chance that I might not even get into uni next year....

Ipod Challenge, Day 2

First song to come on your shuffle that makes you happy; why does it make you happy?

~ Summer Love - Justin Timberlake
~ This makes me happy because it has the word "Summer" in it, and I'm really looking forward to a great summer :D

Ipod Challenge, Day 1

First song to come on your shuffle; why it is on your iPod, what significance does it hold?

~Stan - Eminem

~It is on my Ipod because it was on a copy of an Eminem CD I found in my room.

~It doesn't hold much significance, other than it is the first Eminem song I ever heard.

10 Day Ipod shuffle challenge

1. First song to come on your shuffle; why it is on your iPod, what significance does it hold?
2. First song to come on your shuffle that makes you happy; why does it make you happy?
3. First song to come on your shuffle that makes you sad; why does it make you sad?
4. Fifteenth song to come on your shuffle is now the theme that describes your life; what does it say?
5. List the first ten songs to come on your shuffle, and post the first one in your audio post.
6. First song to come on your shuffle that relates to your day that day; explain it.
7. Think of a certain song to want to listen to right now, and go through your shuffle until you find it. Post how many songs out of how many are in your entire library it took to get to it. example: i found the song after 34/576 songs.
8. First song to come on your shuffle that is a love song; explain it’s significance to you if any.
9. First song to come on your shuffle from a band that you have seen in concert. If you haven’t seen any bands in concert, one that you would like to see.
10. First song to come on your shuffle that describes your outlook on life; why? Explain it.

Summer

I have been dreaming of this summer for soooo long....

No school, no uni, I'm old enough to make my own decisions, and I have my licence so I can drive wherever.  I have/had heaps of friends, and everyone wants to get out and have a good time before we all go our seperate ways.

Problem #1:  Exams.  When I ask if anyone wants to do something, everyone else is either studying or has an exam.  If anyone else wants to do something, either I'm studying or I have an exam.

Problem #2:  Work.  Lets face it, the majority of us have jobs, and we all work at different times.  This makes organising something spontaneous practically impossible.

Problem #3:  Me.  'nuff said.

School and exams

Well school is now all over forever.  I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not....

13 years has gone so quickly.  I can still remember my first day at school.  I played with a telephone and some random house thing, and managed to get from the lowest reading group, to the top one in an hour or so.  My first day at Shirley, I sat in D3 next to Sang (Charlie) Cho, and got shown around the school by a massive and hairy year 13.  Since then, five years have flown by so quickly that I haven't been able to make the best of each opportunity I've had. 

It's finally hit me.  This is the end of an era.  Has it been worth it?  How has it changed me?  Am I a better person than I was a few years ago?

So many thoughts are going through my mind, which doesn't help with all the stress I already have because of exams.  At least I've already done my first exam, which means I'm one step closer to finishing for good.

We started as Shirley boys. We got involved. We left as Shirley Men.

Motivation

My parents asked me today "why aren't you motivated to do well in school?"
Apparently "because I'm depressed" isn't the right answer...
Perhaps they would prefer it if I told them that I hate school and would much rather sit around doing nothing?

What if I am depressed?  What if my compulsive lying lead to being like this?  Will I ever stop lying?

I'm just not motivated to do anything anymore.  I don't see the point doing school work because I know it's not good enough, and I can't see how it's going to help me.  I'm not motivated to swim anymore because it's just not as fun as it was 2 or 3 years ago.  I'm not motivated to get out of bed in the morning because I know I'll just get yelled at and end up crying myself to sleep.
I'm not motivated to live because I know I'll do more harm than good.

Driving

Last night I went for a drive through town with my dad.  It was all good untill I was about 1k from home....

Coming up to the roundabout, I slowed down, looked and then began to enter the intersection.  There was a (large) vehicle to my right, and so I should've given way, but I didn't... I don't know what I was thinking.  It was as though I was subconsciously trying to kill myself, and if it wasn't for my dad being right beside me, I probably would be dead.  As soon as I got home I just layed down and cried as my dad gave me yet another lecture.

Today was horrible.  I felt sick every time I went through a roundabout on my bike on the way to school.

When I got to English last period, it all came flooding back.  What if I did get hit?  What would've happened to everyone else?  How selfish would it have been?  What made me feel so bad about myself?  I can't remember a time when I haven't been either depressed or lying to people. 

Thanks rusty for your support this arvo.  To be honest, without talking to you, I probably wouldn't have made it home in one piece.

You there.

If you do read this, please feel free to comment on any of my previous and future posts :)
I would love to hear your thoughts.

I'll keep it brief today.

 - Photo for Scholarship candidates

 - Home early and studied

 - Told a few people about what's been going on in my life

 - Early night because I'm training in the morning : )

The weekend

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An average weekend.

Saturday was the Templeton swim meet.  I did surprisingly well considering my lack of training.  The only thing I didn't like was the atmosphere.  It felt as though I didn't belong there anymore. 

I was the person from QEII who had been in the club the longest, and it seemed like my time had come and gone.  I haven't been training, I haven't talked to most people in weeks.  I have been stuck in a hole, and I don't know what to talk about with them.  When I sat next to someone, they'd get up and go sit with other people.  When someone asked me about something, I couldn't answer it because they had been talking about it when I wasn't there.  I was in different heats, different events, nothing was social about it.  The people I usually talk to weren't there, and so I was left to sit by myself listening to my ipod.  Going up for races, I would go see the coach.  Instead of a brief race plan, he just gave me a nod.  Not a word was spoken to me.  It was the first time that I have not enjoyed swimming.

The afternoon session wasn't much better... Slower people were chosen ahead of me for the relays, I was even insulted by "friends" from other clubs for being in a slower lane.  I was in a heat with 10 year olds, and even though I won my heat by quite a bit, I still felt like I was inferior to them.  They were there having so much fun with their friends, chatting and swimming well, with many years of that ahead of them.  I was 100% jealous.

The occasional person talked to me, but never a decent conversation. Two people asked what was up with "my depressing fb status'", I tried to avoid it, but it was very hard.  Only one of them actually realised what was going on, and I thank them for the hug, which I really needed :)

I'll see what happens over the next few weeks, and then the summer holidays, but if it going to be like what happened on the weekend, then I don't think I'll be swimming much longer.  I swim because it's fun.  Not fun = no more swimming.

Day Ten: One confession

Oh boy, I've been dreading this day since I started this 'Blog Challenge'

I have thought long and hard at what I could confess and quite a few things have come to mind.

  - Childish things such as who I 'like'

  - Depressing thoughts I've had

  - What I think about something or someone

  - I could talk about something that happened a few years ago, or maybe something more recent

What is something that no one else knows about me?

There is so much I could say, but here goes...

I am a compulsive liar.

I seriously have a problem and I need help.

Not a day goes by without me lying to someone.  I lie without hesitation, even to the people I care about.  I always regret doing it, and I am deeply sorry to everone.... I don't know why I do it. It just seems the easy way out of any situation.  I can almost guarrantee that the next time I talk to you (whoever you are) I will most likely lie straight to your face.  Over the Summer holidays I will be working on this, and hopefully by the start of next year, I will be a lot more truthful in the things I say and do.

I highly recommend that for the next few months, you should not believe anything I say unless either you know it is true, or I can prove I'm not lying.  This will be a good way of teaching me not to lie.

I need your help, please.  I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now

Nearly finished the ten day challenge...

Emoticon 1.  >: (
Emoticon 2.  :'(

Day Eight: three turn ons

This is extremely similar to "Day Three: Eight ways to win my heart", so I don't think I need to answer it.  My answers would be basically the same and I cbf typing them again...  Sorry if you were hoping for a better answer, but if you really want to know, I'm sure you'll figure them out soon enough :)



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Day Seven: Four turn offs

            1.  Smoking - It's just yuck.

                2.  "Been around the block" if you know what I mean

                3.  That ear stretching shit - it looks horrible

            4.  Lies -  I know that's a bit hypocritcal, but I'm trying to change...

Dreams

Last night I had some scary dreams...

At first I was biking down the road, then all of a sudden I was hit by a car.  I somehow became the person driving the car and continued drving away.  I drove up the port hills and stopped at the top.  Standing on the edge off a cliff I thought to myself, "If I jump, would it make the world better or worse?"  I stepped back and drove home.  Going through town, I ran over people left, right and centre.  It was horrible....

My thoughts: 

 - Should I get my license if I'm gonna drive like that?

 - Should I have jumped?

 - Why didnt I stop when I hit those people?

 - Was I the person driving at the start?

 - Why the port hills? Is that where I will die?

 - Why was I was perceivng my dream in 3rd person?

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order)

I don't really have particular people who mean a lot, I have groups of people.

1.  The Awesome Foursome (Josh, Tayla, Christie and Amy)

2.  Drama kids (drama classes/musicals)

3.  Swimming people (not all of you, but a select few)

4.  The PTC (picnic-table-crew)

5.  Family

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done

1.  Stop playing cricket
    2.  Oliver.
        3.  Start caring
            4.  Listen to what other people had to say
                5.  Lie to friends and family
                    6.  Make a Facebook account

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind

1.  My life is going nowhere

2.  Why can't I do anything right

3.  What if

4.  Even if I was the last guy on earth, I'd still find a way to stuff it up

5.  How many people actually care.

6.  How have I gotten this far

7.  Music has a scary way of explaining how I feel. Shuffle = "No one's gonna love you" then "Land of Confusion" and "Somewhere I belong"



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Day Three: Eight ways to win my heart

1.  Be confident in yourself and in me

2.  Intelligence - Not amazingly smart, but know enough so that I can do/say things without having to explain

3.  Get along well with my friends

4.  Have a similar taste in music - There's no point arguing over what song to play

5.  Have a good sense of humour - laugh at my stupid jokes, and make plenty of your own

6.  Realise that I am not a great conversationalist

7.  Make me feel included - You'll have to figure out how to do that yourself

8.  Best way to win my heart:  Be there for me when other people aren't - You'd be surprised how many people say and act like they are there for the long haul, then all of a sudden have "more important things to do."

Day Two: Nine things about yourself

1.  I like to think of myself as well rounded person. Academic, sports, and cultural things (like music) fill my life.

2.  I am addicted to Facebook. Seriously.

3.  I have no idea where my life is heading.  Sure I have the next 5 years sorted, but I don't know what I want to do after that.  To be honest, I can't see myself with a desk job for a career.  I would've done something to do with Drama, but I don't think I'm good enough to do it professionally

4.  I hate school with a passion.

5.  I don't like myself (see a previous blog)

6.  I have had my learners licence for 14 months and counting (I am a good driver though.)

7.  I have lied to just about every person I know.

8.  I like the smell of plastic in the sun.

9.  I am not ashamed of the music on my ipod.  Justin Bieber, Backstreet Boys, Five, Westlife, Fergie, N'Sync,  I love it all.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now (without names)

1.  I know you are only trying to help, but please let me have some space.  I can't grow into the person you want me to be, so let me be whoever I turn out to be.

2.  We haven't actually known each other that long compared to some of my other friends, but we have still become great mates.  You might not know it, but you are always the first person that I share things with.  I am incredibly jealous of you, and how you have sorted out your life and know exactly what you want to do.

3.  What gives you the right to insult me, and put me down on a daily basis? It may not look like it hurts, but that's just because I can put on a brave face and pretend to brush it off.  You make me want to leave the group, but I can't because I have nowhere else to go.

4.  We have grown apart, but I still think of you all the time.  I want to help you, but you're just too far away.  To me it seems as though you haven't changed in any way in the 3-4 years that I've known you.  To be honest, I would give anything to go back to the first day that I met you, and show you what kind of person I really am.

5.  You are a cool kid and you mean a lot to me.  You probably have no idea that I kinda like you (I have for quite a while haha), and I really want to know what you think of me.  I have tried to read your body language and what you say to me, but I just can't tell. What am I? Just some kid, a friend, a good friend, one of your best friends, something more?

6.  You don't own me. You don't control me. Don't think that just because you are older means I will respect you. Leave me alone.

7.  You are just one of those people that whenever I see you, I can't help but smile :) 

8.  You think you know me, but you have no idea.  Even after nearly 5 years, you still don't know anything about me outside of school.  I find it amusing how you think everyone loves you, but in fact they think you are a tad strange.

9.  I had a lot of respect for you up untill I got that message from you.  I thought you were someone that would've realised I put so much more into the school than what it gave me in return.  As of now, you are nothing more than an old teacher to me.

10.  Once upon a time, I used to enjoy your company and talking to you. But nowadays, I have grown tired of you.  I don't want to be around you. You scare me and make me believe things I don't want to.



Reading over these again, I have unfortunately proven my point http://fleedle1.blogspot.com/2010/09/me.html

Ben C

Bloggers 10 day challenge;

 ~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

 ~Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

 ~Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

 ~Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind

 ~Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done

 ~Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order)

 ~Day Seven: Four turn offs

 ~Day Eight: three turn ons

 ~Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now

 ~Day Ten: One confession

Me

Today, I've realised I am a horrible person.

 - I can't stay focused on one thing
 - I do things that I shouldn't
 - I lie and cheat on a daily basis
 - I have no idea where my life is heading
 - I'm not boyfriend material
 - I am boring.
 - I am not worthy of the things I have, and the people I know
 - I hurt people.

I do not deserve to be me.

I am both pleased and very angry with the way this school term has ended.

Pleased because I need to start studying hard, earn some money, have a break from school, hang out with mates. Ya know, the usual things teenagers do.  The thing that bugs me is that I got a message from one of the senior staff at school saying, "Thank you for the contributions you have made to SBHS."  Do they really expect me to accept that???

Expanding on the above:
 - It's the end of Term 3, the last full term of school EVER. It has finally hit me, in just a few weeks all my friends will be going their seperate ways :(  I will have to do something with my life. Focus on something I want to do. This is where it all counts...

 - It seemed like a great day, but to be honest it wasn't that great. Yeah sure, I wasn't at school till 11am, but that's not all I care about.  Early start, stood in a line for 3 hours (it was worth it though).  It was kinda sad after school because most people just went home. I miss the old days where we would all go down and get some chips, then have a great afternoon down at the park.  I guess it is a bit difficult nowadays, especially with people having to work, go on holiday, and just any other commitments....

 - When I got that message from a senior staff member, it almost ruined my afternoon. I couldn't believe they had the guts to say this to me after what they have done.  I gave them 4 and a half years of some of the best years of my life.  I was an excellent student. I contributed to the school academically, musically, with sports, and as a leader (although I wasn't recognised as one).  Why the hell do they think that it's okay to say they are thankful for my contributions?!?!  If they are so thankful, why did they turn down my application for Senior Leader last year? Why did they turn down my application for Prefect?  Why do they continue to ignore all the things that I achieve and do for the school?  It really annoys me how they probably think that I will be very happy how they have recognised my efforts with a general statement that almost every student will get. Do I not deserve something a bit different....? Sure, the school has thousands of students that pass through its gates, but you would think they would be able to make a bit more of a personal comment, especially considering I/we have been hanging around for almost 5 years???

I have almost given up on school.  I don't want to be there. I go for lunch, study periods, and to see my friends. I DO NOT like sitting in classrooms being yelled at by the teacher for not following their exact word. I would leave now if I could go straight to uni, but I can't... I am here just to get credits.

That is all for today
Ben C

My mind is playing tricks on me

The worst part about playing Lysander in our drama class performance, is that it puts stupid ideas in my mind.  It tries to make me think that I like someone in a way that I know I shouldn't.


For those of you that don't know, Lysander is a character from "A Midsummer Nights Dream" by William Shakespeare.  He is a character who is in love with Hermia, but falls in love with Helena when under the influence of a love potion.  After the love potion is removed, he once again realises that Hermia is his one true love.


My point is:  After acting as though I was in love for several hours each day, my mind led me to believe that what I felt was irl and not just in the play.  I will say it;  For a while there, I did really like ______ (well at least I thought I did).  There is no doubt about it, she is a great friend, and really do enjoy her company, but to be honest she is just one of the guys (she even said it herself).  I don't know if what I feel is real or not, because I'm rather stressed and numb to a lot of things that would normally spark a reaction. What I am doing, is playing it safe by not doing anything until I can think straight again.  As yet I haven't told her about this because there is no need to make things complicated between us.  If she does end up reading this, then I hope that I have done the right thing.


Thanks to the play, as well as a whole heap of other stressful stuff, my emotions are a little bit messed up >_<  I wish I could just get on with my life and enjoy what's left of it.  I don't know how I feel, I don't know what to do, and I don't know how to fix it.  All I can do is sit back and do the best I can.


Thank you, and Goodnight.
Ben C

Choices

I have been debating whether I should share the link to this blog to my friends or not...

Why I shouldn't:
 - People might abuse it, and post stupid comments
 - People whom I don't want to read this, might stumble upon it
 - I might (accidently) post somthing that offends someone that reads this
 - I might be judged on what I post, instead of who I am as a person
 - People could read this and make untrue assumptions about what I think
 - My posts could become the topic of the next day's conversations

Why I should:
 - Without people reading it, there isn't much point writing a blog
 - I might want certain people to read my posts
 - I want people to know how I feel, with the comfort of not talking to them directly
 - I read other peoples' blogs, so I guess it's only fair that they read mine
 - People will stop nagging me to post the link

So far it looks as though I won't be sharing the link, but as more people let me know what they think, I shall make an updated decision on the matter.

Yesterday's events

Oh boy, where to begin...?

The other day, I thought it would be a good idea for me to go for a run sometime today, so I decided that I would run to rehearsal yesterday morning. BAD IDEA.  Was good to start with, then I realised I had to take my bag with me :/  Extra weight + head wind = not a good mix

Once at rehearsal, it kinda went a bit downhill thanks to Moran.... Picking on people, mood swings, contradicting herself, and being a general bitch.  We did get a lot of stuff done, but there is a heck of a lot more to do in the next few days.

The drive from Lance's to Tayla's was one of the scariest things... The driver was clearly not in the right head-space. He hit a duck and a little duckling :'(  Took corners too fast, yelled at us, etc.  Bro, I know you are having a rough time, but we are here for you, let someone else drive if you don't think you can handle it.

Hamish's surprise birthday dinner = great success
He had no idea untill he actually saw us in the restaurant.  It was great to see the look on his face :)  Good food, great people, and not to mention the penis-cake hahaha.  It was a great night hanging out with some cool kids around at Ben's place.  I wish every night could be like last night :)

Ben C

First things first

Well first of all I would like to welcome you to my blog :)

The reason that I haven't advertised the link to this page is so that random people don't find it as easy.  I also did it so that only the most dedicated stalkers and people who really want to read this will find it.  I'm sorry if I annoyed you by not simply giving you the link, but this is a way of making sure that you aren't just going to read it just for some cheap laughs.

I hope you enjoy and learn from what I post in the future :)

Ben C