My parents asked me today "why aren't you motivated to do well in school?"
Apparently "because I'm depressed" isn't the right answer...
Perhaps they would prefer it if I told them that I hate school and would much rather sit around doing nothing?
What if I am depressed? What if my compulsive lying lead to being like this? Will I ever stop lying?
I'm just not motivated to do anything anymore. I don't see the point doing school work because I know it's not good enough, and I can't see how it's going to help me. I'm not motivated to swim anymore because it's just not as fun as it was 2 or 3 years ago. I'm not motivated to get out of bed in the morning because I know I'll just get yelled at and end up crying myself to sleep.
I'm not motivated to live because I know I'll do more harm than good.
About Me
- fleedle
- I'm 19, Went to Shirley Boys' High School. I love swimming, performing, and watching the world go by. I spend my days at the pool lifeguarding, coaching and swimming. This is a blog to help me express how I feel, and also keep a record of how things change over the next few weeks/months/years. :)
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