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I'm 19, Went to Shirley Boys' High School. I love swimming, performing, and watching the world go by. I spend my days at the pool lifeguarding, coaching and swimming. This is a blog to help me express how I feel, and also keep a record of how things change over the next few weeks/months/years. :)

Friday, September 24, 2010

I am both pleased and very angry with the way this school term has ended.

Pleased because I need to start studying hard, earn some money, have a break from school, hang out with mates. Ya know, the usual things teenagers do.  The thing that bugs me is that I got a message from one of the senior staff at school saying, "Thank you for the contributions you have made to SBHS."  Do they really expect me to accept that???

Expanding on the above:
 - It's the end of Term 3, the last full term of school EVER. It has finally hit me, in just a few weeks all my friends will be going their seperate ways :(  I will have to do something with my life. Focus on something I want to do. This is where it all counts...

 - It seemed like a great day, but to be honest it wasn't that great. Yeah sure, I wasn't at school till 11am, but that's not all I care about.  Early start, stood in a line for 3 hours (it was worth it though).  It was kinda sad after school because most people just went home. I miss the old days where we would all go down and get some chips, then have a great afternoon down at the park.  I guess it is a bit difficult nowadays, especially with people having to work, go on holiday, and just any other commitments....

 - When I got that message from a senior staff member, it almost ruined my afternoon. I couldn't believe they had the guts to say this to me after what they have done.  I gave them 4 and a half years of some of the best years of my life.  I was an excellent student. I contributed to the school academically, musically, with sports, and as a leader (although I wasn't recognised as one).  Why the hell do they think that it's okay to say they are thankful for my contributions?!?!  If they are so thankful, why did they turn down my application for Senior Leader last year? Why did they turn down my application for Prefect?  Why do they continue to ignore all the things that I achieve and do for the school?  It really annoys me how they probably think that I will be very happy how they have recognised my efforts with a general statement that almost every student will get. Do I not deserve something a bit different....? Sure, the school has thousands of students that pass through its gates, but you would think they would be able to make a bit more of a personal comment, especially considering I/we have been hanging around for almost 5 years???

I have almost given up on school.  I don't want to be there. I go for lunch, study periods, and to see my friends. I DO NOT like sitting in classrooms being yelled at by the teacher for not following their exact word. I would leave now if I could go straight to uni, but I can't... I am here just to get credits.

That is all for today
Ben C

1 comment:

  1. I know exactly what you mean with this. If I could leave school now, I totally would.

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