Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now (without names)

1.  I know you are only trying to help, but please let me have some space.  I can't grow into the person you want me to be, so let me be whoever I turn out to be.

2.  We haven't actually known each other that long compared to some of my other friends, but we have still become great mates.  You might not know it, but you are always the first person that I share things with.  I am incredibly jealous of you, and how you have sorted out your life and know exactly what you want to do.

3.  What gives you the right to insult me, and put me down on a daily basis? It may not look like it hurts, but that's just because I can put on a brave face and pretend to brush it off.  You make me want to leave the group, but I can't because I have nowhere else to go.

4.  We have grown apart, but I still think of you all the time.  I want to help you, but you're just too far away.  To me it seems as though you haven't changed in any way in the 3-4 years that I've known you.  To be honest, I would give anything to go back to the first day that I met you, and show you what kind of person I really am.

5.  You are a cool kid and you mean a lot to me.  You probably have no idea that I kinda like you (I have for quite a while haha), and I really want to know what you think of me.  I have tried to read your body language and what you say to me, but I just can't tell. What am I? Just some kid, a friend, a good friend, one of your best friends, something more?

6.  You don't own me. You don't control me. Don't think that just because you are older means I will respect you. Leave me alone.

7.  You are just one of those people that whenever I see you, I can't help but smile :) 

8.  You think you know me, but you have no idea.  Even after nearly 5 years, you still don't know anything about me outside of school.  I find it amusing how you think everyone loves you, but in fact they think you are a tad strange.

9.  I had a lot of respect for you up untill I got that message from you.  I thought you were someone that would've realised I put so much more into the school than what it gave me in return.  As of now, you are nothing more than an old teacher to me.

10.  Once upon a time, I used to enjoy your company and talking to you. But nowadays, I have grown tired of you.  I don't want to be around you. You scare me and make me believe things I don't want to.



Reading over these again, I have unfortunately proven my point http://fleedle1.blogspot.com/2010/09/me.html

Ben C