The worst part about playing Lysander in our drama class performance, is that it puts stupid ideas in my mind. It tries to make me think that I like someone in a way that I know I shouldn't.
For those of you that don't know, Lysander is a character from "A Midsummer Nights Dream" by William Shakespeare. He is a character who is in love with Hermia, but falls in love with Helena when under the influence of a love potion. After the love potion is removed, he once again realises that Hermia is his one true love.
My point is: After acting as though I was in love for several hours each day, my mind led me to believe that what I felt was irl and not just in the play. I will say it; For a while there, I did really like ______ (well at least I thought I did). There is no doubt about it, she is a great friend, and really do enjoy her company, but to be honest she is just one of the guys (she even said it herself). I don't know if what I feel is real or not, because I'm rather stressed and numb to a lot of things that would normally spark a reaction. What I am doing, is playing it safe by not doing anything until I can think straight again. As yet I haven't told her about this because there is no need to make things complicated between us. If she does end up reading this, then I hope that I have done the right thing.
Thanks to the play, as well as a whole heap of other stressful stuff, my emotions are a little bit messed up >_< I wish I could just get on with my life and enjoy what's left of it. I don't know how I feel, I don't know what to do, and I don't know how to fix it. All I can do is sit back and do the best I can.
Thank you, and Goodnight.
Ben C
About Me
- fleedle
- I'm 19, Went to Shirley Boys' High School. I love swimming, performing, and watching the world go by. I spend my days at the pool lifeguarding, coaching and swimming. This is a blog to help me express how I feel, and also keep a record of how things change over the next few weeks/months/years. :)
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