I seriously need help =(


 - A poem:
Lies have built upon lies, and no truth can now be seen,
All that's left are stories of things that have have not been.
I wish I could go back weeks to before it all began,
I'd start with something fresh, perhaps a new game plan.
The truth would tear me open and I'd feel so unprotected,
But the lies have been far worse, they've left me utterly infected.
I have lied straight to your face and it's killed me deep inside,
I'd much rather make you smile from the true things set aside.
Unfortunately I can't go back now, It'd break us well apart,
I would hate myself forever and I'm sure I'd break your heart.
Things will stand as they are, nothing but the truth in your eyes,
When I know what really happens. All I tell is lies.

For those of you who read this, you probably have no idea what I'm talking about and I'd like it to stay that way just so no one else gets hurt.  It can't stay this way forever, but for now it's how I survive.