I think it's about time that I apologised to a few people...
Mum and Dad: Sorry I lied to you over and over again. I didn't do it because I hate you, I did it because I love you and don't want you to see the bad side of me. Even now, I am still lying to you but only because I don't want my constant imperfections being critiqued by you 24/7.
Mrs Hannah: I know you can't read this, but I'm sorry I didn't put much effort into your classes. I am also sorry I stopped going to class because I was embarrased that I wasn't as good as I thought I was. Up until last year, I had always been in the top few at maths, but last year I struggled to even pass simple papers.
Mr Crean: I apologise for being a lazy student. I was going through some rough times, and to be honest I hate writing. Even though I didn't learn a heck of a lot from you, I still took some of the things you said on-board and passed my external.
Josh Case: I'm sorry we don't hang out as much as we used to last year. You were/are my best mate and I can always rely on you to be there =) I'm really sorry it took so long for me to text you after the earthquake, but I just went into survival mode and didn't even check my phone for days. I hope like hell that you are going to be one of those friends that old people talk about where "we have been friends ever since high school and we still go have a beer every friday" or something like that haha. I love you bro (no homo).
Rachael Shaw: I apologise for making the last post I sent you a public one. I stand by what I said, but it was not the best idea to put it all over facebook. I also apologise for "not being who you thought I was". Clearly, all those conversations we had and all the time we spent together, I was just acting, and being a dick (sarcasm).
Sammy Winward: I'm sorry it took so long for me to speak up. I just kept quiet because (like you said) you didn't see me as more than a friend till not long ago. I'm also sorry that I lose the game almost every time I think of you -.-
I shall edit this post as and when I need to apologise for things that I have done...
About Me
- fleedle
- I'm 19, Went to Shirley Boys' High School. I love swimming, performing, and watching the world go by. I spend my days at the pool lifeguarding, coaching and swimming. This is a blog to help me express how I feel, and also keep a record of how things change over the next few weeks/months/years. :)
Hey, Ben. Thank you. I was waiting for an apology, and now I have it, I can apologise myself.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for fucking you around. I was in the middle of an identity crisis, and about to reach the worst part of my anorexia and I didn't know what I wanted. I becaue bulemic shortly after and went into a long downhill spiral of self-destruction that I've only just surfaced from, I think.
Good to hear you have "surfaced from it" and here's hoping you stay on the bright side of life.
ReplyDeleteI know I really upset you with what I said, but I couldn't just sit there and watch while you disregarded what I said and continued to go on your "downhill spiral".
As you probably noticed from my blog, fb statuses, etc, I found it bloody hard to see the ‘silver lining’ for a very long time. Oliver left me with no work ethic, PPDB (Post-performance down-buzz), but I still had you (for a while at least). Once you basically said you didn’t want me in your life anymore, I pretty much had nowhere to go. I was failing at school, swimming wasn’t going anywhere near as good as it used to, and I had no idea where I wanted to go in life.
Also, those comments that you posted on fb about me were pretty harsh. All your talk of 'karma' kinda went out the window when you started trying to rip the shit out of me without giving me the chance to respond. Oh well, what's done is done..
Let's face it, getting together wasn't the best idea... It basically ruined our friendship :/
P.S I found the Peter Pan book. It came back from neverland =)
Aw I don't know what to say. Me and relationships just don't work apparently.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure something/someone will work out...
ReplyDeleteNever thought this would happen but, do you think that you could put the past behind you (I have done) and perhaps do me the honour of being my facebook friend again...?
^That does sound kinda weird/creepy, but yeah, facebook is (still) something I hold sacred.
You don't have to if you don't want to, but I am willing to accept if you are =)